Like most of the songs I write - it started as a stream of consciousness. I knew deep within myself that I was facing a time of drastic change. I had reached a point in my life of full comfort. I wasn’t being challenged, and I knew that to grow, I would have to change my environment. When I started writing “I’m Not Coming Home”, the “home” that I spoke of was the metaphor of my comfort zone. I knew it would be easy to come “home” and to return to everything I had known for a while. The monotony was becoming unbearable and I felt like I was stuck in a 1950’s black and white movie where every day the same routine repeats. I knew this feeling wouldn’t work for me. It was time to challenge myself to grow out of the shell I was living in and find a bigger one.
That was that. I moved to a new continent, started a new life and did it all alone. The hardest lesson to learn here was just what it takes to build a life from scratch. I had grown up my whole life with a community and the same friends I had since I was 3 years old. Suddenly, I found myself in a city where I knew barely anyone and had to build a life for myself. I went in positive. Although it was hard, I somehow managed to carry on. There were many breakdowns, there were many “I need to come home” phone calls, and there were a lot of questions. But once I had quietened down the chaos of change, I saw myself. I saw myself as bare as I possibly could be. This is the greatest gift I could have given myself. I gained a perspective on life I would have never gained had I not challenged myself to live outside of my comfort zone. I strengthened my resilience and learned more about myself in those 10 months than I had ever known before.
This song is about embracing positive growth, individual exploration and expansion. Every journey and every part of life has something to offer us. This song encapsulates a breakthrough that became the springboard to my ultimate exploration of my independence and identity. Life is filled with choices. I often find myself unafraid to make the difficult choice. These have proven to be the most rewarding.
When you listen to this song, I hope it inspires you to do something outside of your comfort zone at least once. Before you know it your life will open up and opportunities to grow, learn and expand will throw themselves at you. There is a world out there waiting to be explored. It’s up to you to buy the ticket.
Love this post! So excited for your song to be released <3
Super excited!